why

why am i still like this
why am i still remembering you
why am i still want to call you
why does this feeling won't go away
must be easy for you
to leave
to find someone new
to forget us
forget me

but why am i still like this
why can't i erase your memory
your face
your voice
your smile
your everything

i miss you

i miss your face, your voice, your hands, your hugs, your kisses, everything
i miss you. a lot

goodbye love

really though,
and i'm hoping it's real this time and i won't go back to you so really
thank you and sorry
and goodbye
you know, you made me realize how stupid i am and i'm making a fool out of myself over and over again, and all of that are bullshit so yeah
goodbye
(maybe this is my anger speaking but hopefully my anger will speak forever)

huh...

huh...weird
someone acts like you
and he exactly did the same thing like you
he was broadcasting and he subtly tells me to be okay and to move on
but thing is, he has a girlfriend
maybe i'm just too paranoid or flattering myself

well you met someone new
and you're dating her right now
so
i hate you
and maybe that's what you're trying to do
and it works
it really works
hope you're happy
and longlast

friends?

are they really my friends?
i don't know
i feel like i'm close to them but when i'm angry they don't ask how was i doing, i don't know if i'm being overly sensitive about attention or not. but aren't they supposed at least ask what happened?
and well i know everyone have their own business have their own thing but, i always be there for them, i always ask them what's wrong

2 years

2 years i've been with you, we've been through good and bad times, and it's the most happiest time i've had.i wish i could repeat those moments again, but i know i couldn't

and my love, i will never ever find someone like you, well besides you. but i know we got to move on. but to everyone else.. i will never go through this again. not ever. i just want my love, i will go through anything for to be with him

2 years... i'm thankful and sorry.

sorry that i said mean things, i just said it because i was mad and still heartbroken and didn't think about how would you feel, i was just focusing on getting rid of my sadness and anger by said it to you, to make you hurt because i, still, can't accept that you're not mine anymore.

but i realized that you, too, is heartbroken and sad, and i promise you this is the last. i'll try to not bother you anymore

oh my lord -.-

Really?
Like, dude, for real?
My family is driving me crazy
HELLO! We live in 21st century for God's sake, this is 2017
Just why are you torturing me
I can't go anywhere, they won't allow me to do anything, yet they complain on and on about me not doing anything

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Is it normal for me to hate hermit guy?

Because I'm starting to feel that way, I mean I don't know, I keep thinking that if he do loves me why did he leave me?

People say "if you love someone let them go, and if they come back they're yours", but I don't know, GAH

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well, I just want to share my feelings :3
I don't know what I should feel right now, like I care too much, and I don't know how I should do, usually Hermit guy has all the answers for me, but since we broke up, texting him feels wrong yet so right. He replies to me with no more than 3 words, and sometimes he would reply with : "iuno" "mhm" "iya", dude! everytime he reply like that I just want to cry and choke him.
Terlalu bergantung.... so ladies if you read this, don't depend on your boyfriend too much, for once he leaves you, you will be lost in this goddamn world

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Oh dear God....
My so-called family is driving me crazy
Why?
Well the thing about my trip is that none of my family ever been to, and I don't really like the country I'm going to, so my sister and I already found a hotel and already booked it, and suddenly my annoying aunt told my mom to rent an apartment instead because hotel is expensive, so I asked what kind of apartment, and my aunt doesn't know at all, she just told us to get an apartment but she doesn't even know where to look.
Dude, if you want an apartment so bad why not go look for yourself?
I don't know how their brain works, and my mom told me to look, but the thing is : IT'S SO HARD TO FIND AN APARTMENT BECAUSE WE'RE GOING IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!!
I've looked and the only thing that is available is hotel or hostel, if you want an apartment you should search for it a month ago