Really?
Like, dude, for real?
My family is driving me crazy
HELLO! We live in 21st century for God's sake, this is 2017
Just why are you torturing me
I can't go anywhere, they won't allow me to do anything, yet they complain on and on about me not doing anything
Selasa, 18 Juli 2017
Kamis, 13 Juli 2017
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Is it normal for me to hate hermit guy?
Because I'm starting to feel that way, I mean I don't know, I keep thinking that if he do loves me why did he leave me?
People say "if you love someone let them go, and if they come back they're yours", but I don't know, GAH
Minggu, 09 Juli 2017
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well, I just want to share my feelings :3
I don't know what I should feel right now, like I care too much, and I don't know how I should do, usually Hermit guy has all the answers for me, but since we broke up, texting him feels wrong yet so right. He replies to me with no more than 3 words, and sometimes he would reply with : "iuno" "mhm" "iya", dude! everytime he reply like that I just want to cry and choke him.
Terlalu bergantung.... so ladies if you read this, don't depend on your boyfriend too much, for once he leaves you, you will be lost in this goddamn world
I don't know what I should feel right now, like I care too much, and I don't know how I should do, usually Hermit guy has all the answers for me, but since we broke up, texting him feels wrong yet so right. He replies to me with no more than 3 words, and sometimes he would reply with : "iuno" "mhm" "iya", dude! everytime he reply like that I just want to cry and choke him.
Terlalu bergantung.... so ladies if you read this, don't depend on your boyfriend too much, for once he leaves you, you will be lost in this goddamn world
Sabtu, 08 Juli 2017
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Oh dear God....
My so-called family is driving me crazy
Why?
Well the thing about my trip is that none of my family ever been to, and I don't really like the country I'm going to, so my sister and I already found a hotel and already booked it, and suddenly my annoying aunt told my mom to rent an apartment instead because hotel is expensive, so I asked what kind of apartment, and my aunt doesn't know at all, she just told us to get an apartment but she doesn't even know where to look.
Dude, if you want an apartment so bad why not go look for yourself?
I don't know how their brain works, and my mom told me to look, but the thing is : IT'S SO HARD TO FIND AN APARTMENT BECAUSE WE'RE GOING IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!!
I've looked and the only thing that is available is hotel or hostel, if you want an apartment you should search for it a month ago
My so-called family is driving me crazy
Why?
Well the thing about my trip is that none of my family ever been to, and I don't really like the country I'm going to, so my sister and I already found a hotel and already booked it, and suddenly my annoying aunt told my mom to rent an apartment instead because hotel is expensive, so I asked what kind of apartment, and my aunt doesn't know at all, she just told us to get an apartment but she doesn't even know where to look.
Dude, if you want an apartment so bad why not go look for yourself?
I don't know how their brain works, and my mom told me to look, but the thing is : IT'S SO HARD TO FIND AN APARTMENT BECAUSE WE'RE GOING IN 2 WEEKS!!!!!!
I've looked and the only thing that is available is hotel or hostel, if you want an apartment you should search for it a month ago
1-1
At first, it was so damn hard, really really hard that I stared at my phone all the time.
Then I realized I would never find someone like him. Ever. That's when i asked him to take me back, but he said no.
Well, I told my closest friends, and they were helpful, but they, too, have their own life, so I can't really reach out to them when I'm thinking about Hermit guy, which is all the time. Pathetic? Maybe, but when you guys met "the one" you'll understand me.
My first week was a mess, thank god my family was out of town and I was house-sitting. Now I'm not a big of a mess anymore, but something inside me still wants to, at least, talk to him and I tried, but his responses were like he doesn't want to know anything about me anymore, and he never reach out for me. Never ONCE.
I really considered him as a selfish guy, I do. But then again, I just know that he's just trying to get to use to not having me around. I wish I have the power to do that. I've tried blocking him from any social media, but I gave up, I can't, I don't know what is my name in his phone right now, but I'm curious.
June 2017 probably the worst month I've ever lived.
But in July, I started to get better, less crying, more busy, but still thinking about him. Sigh.
Good news is, I got an upcoming trip ahead to overseas! Truthfully, not really looking forward to it, but at least I get to wander around and busy myself.
Hopefully this trip will be a great adventure for me. I will post about it later!
See you guys and have a wonderful day :)
Then I realized I would never find someone like him. Ever. That's when i asked him to take me back, but he said no.
Well, I told my closest friends, and they were helpful, but they, too, have their own life, so I can't really reach out to them when I'm thinking about Hermit guy, which is all the time. Pathetic? Maybe, but when you guys met "the one" you'll understand me.
My first week was a mess, thank god my family was out of town and I was house-sitting. Now I'm not a big of a mess anymore, but something inside me still wants to, at least, talk to him and I tried, but his responses were like he doesn't want to know anything about me anymore, and he never reach out for me. Never ONCE.
I really considered him as a selfish guy, I do. But then again, I just know that he's just trying to get to use to not having me around. I wish I have the power to do that. I've tried blocking him from any social media, but I gave up, I can't, I don't know what is my name in his phone right now, but I'm curious.
June 2017 probably the worst month I've ever lived.
But in July, I started to get better, less crying, more busy, but still thinking about him. Sigh.
Good news is, I got an upcoming trip ahead to overseas! Truthfully, not really looking forward to it, but at least I get to wander around and busy myself.
Hopefully this trip will be a great adventure for me. I will post about it later!
See you guys and have a wonderful day :)
chapter one
so people...If you read the introduction I already told you that this blog started because of my break-up.
So yeah, I broke-up or more likely got dumped from my 2 years and a month boyfriend.
He cheats? NO. He manipulated me? NO.He found someone else? NO.He's gay? NO.
All the negative reason you can think of it's a NO.
Well let me tell you the story,
When I was 17 back on 2015, my parents got into a fight, they even think about getting a divorce, so I needed someone to talk to, my friends don't get it, my first boyfriend doesn't get it, so I got introduced to this Hermit guy, and I started to tell him all of my problems, and quickly we clicked, he's one in a million, I can tell you that and well yeah I started to like him, you may think I was a bitch because i still had a boyfriend back at the time, well I broke up with my 1st boyfriend, and a month later I started dating this Hermit guy. He was special. And maybe still is. To me.
But one problem, me and Hermit guy comes from different background. I'm chinese but he's not. To us it's not a problem at all. but to my family it's like HELL NO. Well when I told my mom the truth, she said some mean shit stuff to me,to my Hermit guy,and to our friends who introduced us. why not give up? well because me and Hermit guy thought that this is something that should be on our hands,our decision, and we lived pretty much happy for 2 years and a month, sure we had fights, but even when we fought, me and him still find a way to each other again.
Until last month he told me that he can't do this anymore because the pressure from my family, and he was tired from work too and I was stupid I said if he wants to break-up, let's break up right now. yeah yeah I know and that made him do it, he broke up with me and let me tell you, when he said those words, my heart shattered in pieces. I told him I don't want to break up, but he still insist. So yeah... and right now I still cry for him, after the break-up I cried for a whole month and today too. I tried to busy myself, but he still on my mind, and I dunno how am i going to rid of him.but life goes on right? Life doesn't care about you, they just keep going and going, until you start to care less on things.
Meh.
I asked Hermit to take me back. Twice. But he said no, he said he regrets it but he still doesn't want to get back together. Well you guys might know this phrase, "when you love someone, let them go and if they comes back, they're yours forever" or "if two people are meant to be together, they'll find a way to be together". I still hope for that to happen you know, maybe I'm too naive or believes in some lies but I do hope for that.
Okay, enough about my past. This blog is my new beginnings, and i will post about my beginnings. Starts NOW.
So yeah, I broke-up or more likely got dumped from my 2 years and a month boyfriend.
He cheats? NO. He manipulated me? NO.He found someone else? NO.He's gay? NO.
All the negative reason you can think of it's a NO.
Well let me tell you the story,
When I was 17 back on 2015, my parents got into a fight, they even think about getting a divorce, so I needed someone to talk to, my friends don't get it, my first boyfriend doesn't get it, so I got introduced to this Hermit guy, and I started to tell him all of my problems, and quickly we clicked, he's one in a million, I can tell you that and well yeah I started to like him, you may think I was a bitch because i still had a boyfriend back at the time, well I broke up with my 1st boyfriend, and a month later I started dating this Hermit guy. He was special. And maybe still is. To me.
But one problem, me and Hermit guy comes from different background. I'm chinese but he's not. To us it's not a problem at all. but to my family it's like HELL NO. Well when I told my mom the truth, she said some mean shit stuff to me,to my Hermit guy,and to our friends who introduced us. why not give up? well because me and Hermit guy thought that this is something that should be on our hands,our decision, and we lived pretty much happy for 2 years and a month, sure we had fights, but even when we fought, me and him still find a way to each other again.
Until last month he told me that he can't do this anymore because the pressure from my family, and he was tired from work too and I was stupid I said if he wants to break-up, let's break up right now. yeah yeah I know and that made him do it, he broke up with me and let me tell you, when he said those words, my heart shattered in pieces. I told him I don't want to break up, but he still insist. So yeah... and right now I still cry for him, after the break-up I cried for a whole month and today too. I tried to busy myself, but he still on my mind, and I dunno how am i going to rid of him.but life goes on right? Life doesn't care about you, they just keep going and going, until you start to care less on things.
Meh.
I asked Hermit to take me back. Twice. But he said no, he said he regrets it but he still doesn't want to get back together. Well you guys might know this phrase, "when you love someone, let them go and if they comes back, they're yours forever" or "if two people are meant to be together, they'll find a way to be together". I still hope for that to happen you know, maybe I'm too naive or believes in some lies but I do hope for that.
Okay, enough about my past. This blog is my new beginnings, and i will post about my beginnings. Starts NOW.
introduction
well, hello people
for you guys who are reading this i will give you guys a warning :
THIS BLOG IS MY PERSONAL LIFE WHO I WANT TO SHARE WITH A CERTAIN ONE PERSON BUT CAN'T BECAUSE OF BREAK-UP. ironic. cliche. or some stuff. i know guys... and you don't have to read it, this is just because i need some space to throw my heart out. to share something because where i used to share i no longer have. so bear with me. thank you.
for you guys who are reading this i will give you guys a warning :
THIS BLOG IS MY PERSONAL LIFE WHO I WANT TO SHARE WITH A CERTAIN ONE PERSON BUT CAN'T BECAUSE OF BREAK-UP. ironic. cliche. or some stuff. i know guys... and you don't have to read it, this is just because i need some space to throw my heart out. to share something because where i used to share i no longer have. so bear with me. thank you.
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