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At first, it was so damn hard, really really hard that I stared at my phone all the time.

Then I realized I would never find someone like him. Ever. That's when i asked him to take me back, but he said no.

Well, I told my closest friends, and they were helpful, but they, too, have their own life, so I can't really reach out to them when I'm thinking about Hermit guy, which is all the time. Pathetic? Maybe, but when you guys met "the one" you'll understand me.

My first week was a mess, thank god my family was out of town and I was house-sitting. Now I'm not a big of a mess anymore, but something inside me still wants to, at least, talk to him and I tried, but his responses were like he doesn't want to know anything about me anymore, and he never reach out for me. Never ONCE.

I really considered him as a selfish guy, I do. But then again, I just know that he's just trying to get to use to not having me around. I wish I have the power to do that. I've tried blocking him from any social media, but I gave up, I can't, I don't know what is my name in his phone right now, but I'm curious.

June 2017 probably the worst month I've ever lived.

But in July, I started to get better, less crying, more busy, but still thinking about him. Sigh.

Good news is, I got an upcoming trip ahead to overseas! Truthfully, not really looking forward to it, but at least I get to wander around and busy myself.

Hopefully this trip will be a great adventure for me. I will post about it later!

See you guys and have a wonderful day :)