chapter one

so people...If you read the introduction I already told you that this blog started because of my break-up.

So yeah, I broke-up or more likely got dumped from my 2 years and a month boyfriend.

He cheats? NO. He manipulated me? NO.He found someone else? NO.He's gay? NO.

All the negative reason you can think of it's a NO.

Well let me tell you the story,

When I was 17 back on 2015, my parents got into a fight, they even think about getting a divorce, so I needed someone to talk to, my friends don't get it, my first boyfriend doesn't get it, so I got introduced to this Hermit guy, and I started to tell him all of my problems, and quickly we clicked, he's one in a million, I can tell you that and well yeah I started to like him, you may think I was a bitch because i still had a boyfriend back at the time, well I broke up with my 1st boyfriend, and a month later I started dating this Hermit guy. He was special. And maybe still is. To me.

But one problem, me and Hermit guy comes from different background. I'm chinese but he's not. To us it's not a problem at all. but to my family it's like HELL NO. Well when I told my mom the truth, she said some mean shit stuff to me,to my Hermit guy,and to our friends who introduced us. why not give up? well because me and Hermit guy thought that this is something that should be on our hands,our decision, and we lived pretty much happy for 2 years and a month, sure we had fights, but even when we fought, me and him still find a way to each other again. 

Until last month he told me that he can't do this anymore because the pressure from my family, and he was tired from work too and I was stupid I said if he wants to break-up, let's break up right now. yeah yeah I know and that made him do it, he broke up with me and let me tell you, when he said those words, my heart shattered in pieces. I told him I don't want to break up, but he still insist. So yeah... and right now I still cry for him, after the break-up I cried for a whole month and today too. I tried to busy myself, but he still on my mind, and I dunno how am i going to rid of him.but life goes on right? Life doesn't care about you, they just keep going and going, until you start to care less on things.

Meh.

I asked Hermit to take me back. Twice. But he said no, he said he regrets it but he still doesn't want to get back together. Well you guys might know this phrase, "when you love someone, let them go and if they comes back, they're yours forever" or "if two people are meant to be together, they'll find a way to be together". I still hope for that to happen you know, maybe I'm too naive or believes in some lies but I do hope for that.

Okay, enough about my past. This blog is my new beginnings, and i will post about my beginnings. Starts NOW.